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struggle bus

I’m pretty sure all of my teachers get together and plan to put all of my tests and papers on the same day. I’m honestly starting to believe that. Every single week, I have an average of 3 tests and quizzes one one day and an 8 page paper due the day before! Not to mention hours of homework. The Sophomore Slump is real, y’all. It also doesn’t help that I’m taking German and Spanish at the same time. I thought that was a good idea, why? I know college is not easy, especially Auburn, but it seems like all my friends have maybe one or two tests a month, and MAYBE one paper, and I’m here doing work hours every single night while they’re out having fun. I guess that’s what I get for doing awful freshman year.

I can not wait to get into classes for my major. Maybe I’ll have some more motivation to do my work when it actually interests me. The funny thing is that I don’t even know for sure what I’m majoring in anymore. All I can really do is laugh at myself.

Thanksgiving break, where are you?!! I’m in major need for some Birmingham lovin’. Newks, my bed, my Bham friends, a mental break, and homecooked meals are calling my name.

Speaking of Thanksgiving break… where the hell did 2013 go?

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Going Away To College

I promise that this will be the last blog post focused on Newk’s for a while. If you haven’t caught on, Newks is the restaurant I work at.

Today was my last day at Newk’s. I’ve worked there since December 2, 2012. Who am I kidding? I worked there? More like lived. I’ve spent probably close to 1,000 hours there the past eight months, and I wouldn’t trade it for anything. I walked into Newk’s wanting about 10-12 hours a week and that’s exactly what I got. Until I decided I wanted more hours so I could work with my then-crush. I started as kind of an underdog at Newks. I was only there for the last day of training, which was more like a trial run. I kind of just hopped into things, which put me at a slight disadvantage. Soon though, I began working more than most of the high schoolers, which obviously made me equally skilled as everyone. I continued to work, work, work and was so determined to prove myself as a valuable employee, and I did. I felt respect from my managers and coworkers, something I never experienced at my two previous jobs. I continued to work my butt off, and worked my way from register, to food runner, to salads. By May, I became the new night-shift salad maker. That came with a cost, obviously being my summer nights. But I got off at 9pm, which is when the night begins, right?

Of course working 20-30 hours a week with the same people really bonds you. I have made some of the best friends ever at Newks. My friends are amazing, but my work friends are equally amazing. My life has been changed by these people, and I’m so thankful for the experiences I’ve had and the memories I’ve made with them. I’m trying to think what my life would be without Newk’s and I honestly don’t even want to know. I wouldn’t trade anything for the experience. I’m a better person now. I’ve become truly happy with my life the last few months, and I really believe Newk’s had something to do with it. I’ve made the most amazing friends, had the most amazing managers, and have had some crushes here and there that have taught me a LOT about boys.

Now, this chapter is coming to an end and I couldn’t be sadder. I am still an employee of Newk’s Vestavia Hills and will be for the next few years but it will just be different from here on out, which is why I bawled like a little baby today. I will be back some weekends, and definitely Christmas and summer, but things will be different, and as you all know from reading my blog, I’m kind of a baby when it comes to change.

Basically, I’m so happy Newk’s came into my life. I’m so happy this loser guy worked there that I used to like and made me apply there. I’m so happy I made some of the best friends there. I’m so happy I felt truly loved and respected by 35 different, but amazing people. I’m so happy I met this other guy who has helped me grow this summer in my own way and learn some things I needed to learn before college. I’m so happy, truly truly happy, that Newk’s came into my life. I’m not happy I’m leaving, but I’m hoping most of my coworkers will stick around for a while longer so I can work with them over Christmas and next summer.

I really have never felt so admired than by my coworkers. I got the most beautiful card today and everyone wrote the sweetest messages in them, which made me SOB uncontrollably. I’m actually crying as I type this because that card will forever be one of my favorite things ever.

I’m scared for this new chapter and for the Newk’s in Auburn (I’m hoping it is almost as awesome as my Newk’s but I highly doubt it) but I’m so thankful for my work friends and the memories I made and the person I’ve become while working at Newk’s.

 

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In Your Atmosphere

Simply put, I am a mess. A complete. and utter, out of control, emotional wreck. One of my teachers told me before I graduated that this summer was going to be a fun one but also a confusing one. Boy, was she right. I feel out of place. I’m not a high school student, and not yet a college student. Well, if you want to get technical, I actually am officially enrolled at Auburn, but you know what I mean.

Tonight, my dad started talking to me about getting boxes together and I just lost it. I had to shut the door on his face and just bawl in my room. I can not handle the fact that in a MONTH, I will no longer be living in Birmingham, AL. I will no longer be surrounded by the same people I’ve been surrounded by for the last 18 years. I will leave way too many of my best friends. I will be leaving my coworkers. I will be leaving everything I know and I am NOT ready for it. Yeah, I am SO excited for college, but I’m not excited to have to adapt to the change, because that is something that I am horrible at. You might have noticed that if you’ve read any other posts on my blog.

After this past weekend, I’ve been especially depressed about leaving my Newks friends.We had a “graduation” party for the employees at my friend Karley’s house and it was really fun. It made me realize that some of the friends I’ve made at Newks are some of the best friends ever and that they mean so much more to me than I ever thought coworkers could mean to someone. Today, my manager was joking around about finding my “replacement” (which will never happen BTW because no one can replace me…:)) and I cried. It was a joke, but seriously thinking about leaving really depresses me.

There is also stuff going on in my life right now that really confuses me. Stuff I don’t reaaally want to get into on a blog that no one reads, but I am just so confused why it’s happening 1 month before I leave for college. Seriously. I’ve been so patient for 18 years, and I am put in this situation when I have one month left…? I don’t get my life sometimes.

 

Seriously, this post is ridiculous and really personal but whatevs. I needed to vent somewhere and I’m too busy to get out a pen and actually write in my journal…

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Music

Music soothes my soul. It means so much to me. I wish I could listen to music 24/7 of my life. It speaks volumes to me. It can make me happy, sad, excited, reminiscent, grateful, or calm. I love to take songs and analyze them. The lyrics, the beat, the instruments, everything. I could listen to it every, single, second of my life. I’m so thankful for it.

 

“Everything that’s come to pass is sand inside the hourglass” -Hourglass by Drew Holcomb & The Neighbors 

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Walls Come Down

Ya’ll. I have a confession. I’m really, really, really nervous to write my Revenge recap for NoWhiteNoise on Wednesday. Writing is usually pretty natural to me, once I figure out once I’m writing about – which is the real battle, and I know what I’m supposed to write about but now the pressure is on because people will – GET THIS – actually be reading what I write. Not 20 measly viewers will read what I write, not my English teacher, but a considerable amount of people! I’m just scared I’ll disappoint or fail.

I think what I need to do is calm down and not worry about it. I’m not being graded. This is all for fun. I’m going to attempt to sleep now, even though I’ll probably lie awake wondering how to even write a recap…. (which I should NOT be wondering considering I read every dang recap there is to read every week on EW.com)

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