to be thankful

I noticed a pretty ugly part of myself the other day. On my way home from class, I got the urge to check my mailbox as I do about once every month and I was surprised to find something other than Geico junkmail and coupons. There were two cards and a package in my mailbox all with my name on them. I immediately run back to my car and rip open one of the cards. I don’t even stop to read the card. Instead, I open the card immediately, without reading anything, looking for money. The joy I felt when I saw the money in the card was not worth how awful I felt about myself later when I realized I didn’t even know who the card was from. I was so caught up in hoping there was money in the card, I did not even stop to read what sweet soul sent money to me for HALLOWEEN. I almost sat and cried to myself a few hours after opening the card when I realized that this is not the person I like to think I am. When did I become so caught up in myself, money, and worldly things? One thing about me is that I hate following the crowd. I’m kind of against the newest technology (ahem, e-readers, you will be responsible for wrecking me if you make real books become extinct), I don’t follow trends, I don’t like music in the top 40, I don’t like how modern the world is becoming and I’ve always somewhat moved against the current.  I like to think I’m a somewhat “different” gen y-er, an old soul of sorts, and this situation showed me that I’m not as impervious to getting too caught up in myself and the things in this world as I thought I was. I am not that much different from all of the other ungrateful kids out there who care nothing about a card from a family member; the kind of person who would toss a card in the trash after collecting the money from it.

I’m actually glad this happened though, because it taught me to be more grateful, forget about money and worldly things, because in all reality, they mean nothing. What really matters is the person who took time out of their day to think about you and to send you a card because of that. That is what is important. Because at the end of the day, the person behind the card will always be there. The Chipotle and Starbucks you bought with that $20 will be gone after your most recent trip to the bathroom and that’s something we could all remember every now and then.

I am sad that I let money rule my life and I’m not letting it anymore. It’s time for me to be thankful for the things I have, the people that send me cards with money I did nothing to deserve, and the life that the Good Lord has blessed me with.

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JOHN MAYER

I saw John Mayer last night for the second time. The first time I saw him was in Birmingham in 2010 and it was great but this show was absolutely amazing. I cried twice. You might have read my obsessive post about him last year, so to say I love him would be putting it lightly. The set list was the most perfect setlist there ever was. He played perfect amounts of songs from Paradise Valley, his new album, a few from Born & Raised and of course popular songs such as Your Body is a Wonderland, Slow Dancing in a Burning Room, Vultures, Neon, Gravity, Why Georgia etc, just to name a few! He played for two hours. I was seriously probably the happiest person there last night. He played at Lakewood Amphitheater in Atlanta and it was so great. Our seats weren’t super amazing or anything but it was still the best concert I have ever been to, and I’ve been to a lot of great concerts.

I want to relive the night over and over. ALSO, Phillip Phillips is so great. I was already in love with him before the concert and he just blew it out of the water. He has such a great stage presence and is really great at what he does. Love him.  I also appreciated this concert a lot more because I became a bigger JM fan after I saw him a few years ago. The set was awesome, and constantly changing. His “traveling band” is great and he is such a great musician I can’t even explain. This may not be cool to some people, but he played the guitar upside down, around his back! It was amazing. I love him even more now. People say he is a douche, but I think he is just real, which is something that Hollywood needs. He always has his inspirational lead ins to songs and that might be part of my favorite part about his concerts.

I think I might drop out of school and become a JM groupie.

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Me and Kitty after the concert!

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Sweater Weather

Disclaimer: There is actually no such thing as ‘sweater weather’ in Alabama at the end of September but a girl can only hope.

So, it has been a WHILE since I’ve updated my blog. I’ve been crazy been this summer with work, moving, my dad’s wedding, working out, and having a social life. I feel bad I’ve neglected this little blog but I’m sure all 20 of you don’t mind.

I want to dedicate this post to the awesomeness that was my dads wedding. There is nothing better than a wedding in the heat of summer in good ole’ New Orleans. I had never been to New Orleans before and I definitely consider New Orleans one of my favorite places now. Abigail came with me and I couldn’t have asked for a better friend to come with me. She was my partner in crime.

Sadly, we were only there for a couple of days and didn’t really have time to do as many touristy things as I would’ve liked. Nonetheless, it was AMAZING.

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Me and my bro before the wedding

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MIMOSA TIME after the wedding
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The food at the reception was amazing. If I could go back in time to eat that food again, I would.
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two of my favorite people in the world, my brother and Abigail

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My new step-mom!

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The beautiful Roosevelt Hotel we stayed at. Me and Abigail had the complete set up. Our room was so amazing and was separated from all of my family and the wedding party, which was kind of nice to get away from the chaos.

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Night out with the fam on Bourbon Street after the wedding!

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Blurry, but my new favorite place.

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Brendan and his friend Cason (who is the sweetest kid ever) and me and Abigail with our friend Kevin from high school!IMG_7270

my whole family and the everyone who came to the wedding all went to The Famous Door and literally danced the night away. I will never forget that night. I was filled with so much joy.IMG_7273No words.

All in all, such a great trip. It was so great to be with my family (that I never get to see) and be in a great city like New Orleans. I had the time of my life and will never forget that trip! I am already planning my next trip back. Can you say hello MLK weekend?!

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My husband is not my soul mate.

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It might seem odd that on this, our one-year anniversary, I am beginning a post with the declaration that my husband is not my soul mate. But he isn’t.WegmannWedding161

I wouldn’t want to imagine life without James. I enjoy being with him more than anyone else in this world. I love him more than I ever thought you could love someone, and I miss him whenever I am not with him. I wouldn’t want to married to anyone else other than James, which is good, because I plan on being married to him forever, and he has to let me die first.

But I reject the entire premise of soul mates.

WegmannWedding294Do you remember those awesome Evangelical 90’s/ early 2000’s where Jesus was kind of like our boyfriend and we all kissed dating good-bye because we just knew that God was going to bring us THE ONE and then life…

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Photo on 7-11-13 at 11.56 PMThis is my last computer selfie taken ever in this room. I’m moving out of the house that I have lived in for 12 years and it’s literally one of the saddest days of my life. I hate change, and this is a big one.

 

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When A Heart Breaks

I lost my best friend yesterday. I lost the one person that has ALWAYS, without fail, been there for me. The one that has loved me unconditionally complete with all my faults,the one that has listened to every word I ever said to them, and the one who has never judged me. I lost one of my favorite things in the world yesterday, my dog.

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One of my favorite memories of growing up was going to the pumpkin patch only to come home to this wonderful surprise. I was 7 years old and had NO idea I was about to get a dog. I named him Hiccup and loved him the first minute I saw him. I had a lot of family drama growing up and Hiccup was the one “person” who was always there for me. I had another dog, an older golden retriever named Cally, who I loved with all my heart (and was devastated when he died 5 years ago) but Hiccup and I had a different connection. He loved me as much as I loved him, and I could tell.

Hiccup turned 10 in October 2012, so he definitely wasn’t the youngest dog ever but I thought I still had 3 or so years left with him because a beagle’s’ life expectancy is about 12-15 years. I think the reason I’m so upset is because I was caught so off guard. I found out that he was dying last night while I was at work and it honestly felt like my world stopped for a minute. I am very serious about my work, but I put everything down and ran out.

It was probably the most painful thing ever to see the life sucked out of my precious baby. I cried and cried and cried. The worst part is, my dad told me that he noticed something was wrong with Hiccup and that he ran straight up to my room looking for me before he laid down and started to cry. That broke my heart. I never knew how much it could hurt to lose something or someone so close to you. I’ve been very lucky to have not really experienced any real loss in my life so far, so Hiccup dying definitely takes the cake.

My heart is so heavy and I keep wanting to call my “bub” up the stairs and play with him. It is still sinking in that he’s gone and now he is nothing but a memory. I wish I could just hug him one more time.

I miss my best friend but I know he is in doggy heaven with the other best dog in the world, Callahan.

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Wilmington, NC

My friends Lydia, Callan and I decided on a whim a couple of months ago to make a trip to Wilmington, North Carolina. I’ve been looking forward to it for the past month and Friday morning we were finally packed up and ready to make our way toward Wilmington. Our main reason behind going was to see One Tree Hill (and Dawson’s Creek) filming locations,but also to go to the beach and enjoy a city new to all of us. The drive was 9 hours too long. If you’ve read my blog at all the past year, you will know that I love to travel even if it is just a city I’ve never been to before. Any new place to me is a great place to me. I can’t even explain the joy I felt as we crossed the bridge that leads into Wilmington as we overlooked the gorgeous Cape Fear River and beautiful Historic Downtown Wilmington. It is even more beautiful in person.

We got to Wilmington at about 5pm and went straight to our hotel to get ready to go to dinner out on the Riverwalk. I pretty much planned the activities and things we were going to do on the trip but this night was kind of spontaneous. We decided to eat at the Riverboat Landing.

IMG_6872What drew us to it was how adorable it is! There are private balcony’s for two people that overlook the river. I wish we could’ve sat out there but seeing as there was three of us, we couldn’t.

After dinner, there was a Red Hot Chili Pepper’s cover band out on the Riverwalk and there were tons of people there. They have live music every Friday. The band was so good and sounded just like the RHCP’s. Seriously. Next weekend is a Dave Matthews Band cover band.. I am so sad I won’t be there for that!

The next day was our “One Tree Hill” day. We creeped around all of the characters houses and such. Here are some pictures.

DSCN1568Me, Lydia, and Callan where the Rivercourt was.

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What used to be the Rivercourt

DSCN1584Me and Callan in front of Peyton’s house! I was skeptical about creeping around peoples houses’ and taking pictures but I just went along with it!

DSCN1589Haley’s house in high school

DSCN1591Not the best picture, but this is Lucas’ house.

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Me and Lydia in front of Lucas’ door! eeeeepp

DSCN1614Lydia and I on the Sixth Street Bridge, from the opening credits.

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The top picture is all three of us underneath Crystal Pier, which is from the opening credits of Dawson’s Creek. They have redone most of the pier but you can see part of the orignal pier down at the end. This one is me just fan girling over this pier. I was so happy there was still a part of the original pier!

DSCN1601In front of B. Davis’ house! The neighbor across the street saw us walking the street and I thought he was going to tell us to go away but he actually offered to take our picture. Haha, he knew exactly what we were doing when he saw us. He was so nice! Along with everyone we met in Wilmington. He told us that they used his house once and we figured out that his house was used for the dare night in season 2 when Nathan and Tim dressed like elves and have to try and sell cookies. Pretty cool!

DSCN1624Outside of the exterior of Tric! Sad that the stairway that led up to Tric in the show was taken down. I thought it was an actual part of the building.

DSCN1631The church that Brooke and Julian got married in!

DSCN1633Me and Lydia in front of what used to be Clothes over Bros and Karens Cafe!

DSCN1634Port City Java, which was Tree Hill Cafe in the show! Really good coffee and looks the same inside as it did on the show!

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Whitey Durham Field House! They did such a great job of making it look bigger and like a school!

IMG_6864This is Airlie Road, where Pacey pulls over and kisses Joey and also something else really important happens here but I don’t want to spoil anything incase people haven’t seen that part of DC yet!

IMG_6873This used to be Leery’s Fresh Fish in Dawson’s Creek!

IMG_6877Lydia and I in front of the court house in downton Wilmington! Was used on OTH and DC a few times.

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IMG_6881Sitting where Nathan and Haley sat on the Riverwalk! Love this place so much.

IMG_6714The Riverwalk at sunset.

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This picture is from our first night. I think this is right about when I fell in love with Wilmington.

IMG_6913Hell’s Kitchen from Dawson’s Creek! Has the original furniture and decorations from the set. I have a kind of cool story about it! Our last night, Lydia, Callan, and I wanted our picture taken downtown and had to ask some strangers to take it. Two guys were approaching us and I asked them if they could take it! We got to talking to them and they told us they were heading towards Hell’s Kitchen which is where we were wanting to go and it turns out one of the guy’s family owns it. He was so cute. We hung out with them for a while and it was just really cool hanging out in there. It was so much fun and a great last night!

IMG_6938Lydia and I at the Reel Cafe on Front St our third night. I highly recommend it! Great food and atmosphere.

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Me in front of Alderman Halla at UNCW, aka Capeside High School!

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“Capeside High School”

IMG_6919Okay, if y’all ever go to Wilmington, you MUST go to Chops Deli. It was amazing. Literally my favorite meal in Wilmington.

IMG_6849Port City Java, aka Tree Hill Cafe, had some delicious coffee!

IMG_6900Nathan and Haley’s house! So pretty but it was on a private drive so we couldn’t get a great picture.

IMG_6911So, we try to find Dawson’s house from Dawson’s Creek and came across this. I reallllyyy wanted to drive down there anyway but Lydia was driving and she really didn’t want to. I was so close yet so far away! ahhhhhh

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Our last day, we took an hour boat ride down the Cape Fear River. It was really fun and informational! This is just a picture of some condos on Water St. I will live there one day.

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All of us on our last night! So sad.

Making a road trip to Wilmington was one of the best decisions I’ve made and money well spent. The OTH and DC creek stuff was really cool to see but I fell in love with Wilmington itself. It is so perfect for me. Not too big, not too small, good night life, super close to Wrightsville Beach. The fact that it is a pretty big place for filming locations is another reason why I could totally see myself living there. I had the time of my life! I want to go back NOW! I really am considering trying to get a job and move their after college. I really wish there was a law school in Wilmington because I think that is what I’m doing after college but in any case, I could move there after! I’m being serious about it too, that city has my name written all over it. Counting down the days until I can go back!

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People Always Leave

People always say that our experiences shape who we are but I think that we are shaped not by our experiences, but by the people in our life. I am such a people person. Let me clarify. I hate being around huge crowds, so if you ever see me in the middle of one, I definitely will not be the biggest ‘people person’ right then. What I mean is that once I become friends with someone or develop a relationship with them, I just expect them to be around forever. And then here comes reality hitting me like a ten pound brick when our lives take different paths and we become separated. I am so fortunate to have some of the greatest friends ever. And what happens? We are all ripped apart after high school.  Who has the hardest time with it? Of course, me. I made a bunch of amazing friends at work and who has to move away to college and rarely see them? Me. Leaving people that I love is definitely on the top of my list of things I hate to do. Once I become close with someone, I cherish that relationship forever. All of this goes to show you that I love the people that I have been privileged to know in life.

I have been shaped by the people that I have been surrounded by. They are all a part of me, even apart from me. I am a better person because of all of the relationships in my life, even the ones that “end.” I put that in quotations because now-a-days when people move away or become separated, it is still easy to keep in contact. But for me, that’s not enough. Call me old fashion but connecting over social networks does not do it for me. I still feel a void without that friend in my life.

Though I would never take away the relationships I’ve created that have been separated by distance, I wish that they didn’t have to end. I hate change and I hate when people leave.

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