People always say that our experiences shape who we are but I think that we are shaped not by our experiences, but by the people in our life. I am such a people person. Let me clarify. I hate being around huge crowds, so if you ever see me in the middle of one, I definitely will not be the biggest ‘people person’ right then. What I mean is that once I become friends with someone or develop a relationship with them, I just expect them to be around forever. And then here comes reality hitting me like a ten pound brick when our lives take different paths and we become separated. I am so fortunate to have some of the greatest friends ever. And what happens? We are all ripped apart after high school. Who has the hardest time with it? Of course, me. I made a bunch of amazing friends at work and who has to move away to college and rarely see them? Me. Leaving people that I love is definitely on the top of my list of things I hate to do. Once I become close with someone, I cherish that relationship forever. All of this goes to show you that I love the people that I have been privileged to know in life.
I have been shaped by the people that I have been surrounded by. They are all a part of me, even apart from me. I am a better person because of all of the relationships in my life, even the ones that “end.” I put that in quotations because now-a-days when people move away or become separated, it is still easy to keep in contact. But for me, that’s not enough. Call me old fashion but connecting over social networks does not do it for me. I still feel a void without that friend in my life.
Though I would never take away the relationships I’ve created that have been separated by distance, I wish that they didn’t have to end. I hate change and I hate when people leave.